i miss my family :(

I'm the 1st child of the family. I know I have to be the leader of my siblings.
I must be strong, independent, and dependable. But i just can't.
My family is not far from where i am now.

But i don't have the time to meet them. I feel sad when my youngest brother called me on the phone and told me that he want me to come back home, he told me to not go back here but to stay with him at home. I miss my mom's cooking. I miss praying together every night with my family. I miss my dad! I miss everything

All I need is time. more time for being with my family instead of being here doing nothing.