In Silence...

When I really started feeling the "calling" to write poetry, it came from a need to express comfort to those that have lost. First with the loss of my father many years ago and then throughout the years with friends and family that have lost loved ones. Some one said my writings all "sound the same", and maybe part of that is true. As I look back on my old writings, there are many written to comfort people that have lost loved ones. By putting feelings and memories into words, I try to acknowledge the heart felt pain, and transition emotions to those that offer comfort, hope and acknowledge the joy of the life once shared.

This one was written for a friend who lost their spouse. You can exchange he or she for they if it carries more meaning for you. Originally it was she. In Love and Light, I share yet another...

IN SILENCE

What do you do when someone’s gone away?
Words seem shallow; so much more I want to say.

I sit and think, My heart aches for you.
Your pain, your sorrow, what can I do?

Everyone gathers the support is abound
Afraid to be alone yet don’t want anyone around.

It’s a pace with no name there’s nothing you can do,
For it’s nowhere at all but inside of you.

In silence you sit, watch, listen and wait.
You feel and feel and want out; there’s no gate.

The pain of the loss overtakes your breath
This place hurts as you feel their death.

It’s dark and damp and oh so cold
You can’t go on there’s no one to hold

A chill you feel then sweet softness so warm
Across your neck, your cheek, your lips…no form

In silence you see a light it glows
Your holding your breath, the silence grows

A thought it comes and touches you
A smile it brings as only they can do

Memories fly and laughter it comes
A fragrance you taste on your tongue

The light is bright as thoughts go by
Times together; they seem to fly

Memories flood in. Oh please let them stay?
Oh God why did you take them away?

A silent touch you feel; your heart skips a beat
A voice, their voice, you get up on your feet

You’re alone, you’re alone ;you tell yourself out loud
Your head spins, heart races, you feel as if a cloud

This place inside of you isn’t really that bad
It’s a place where it’s even ok to get mad

The loss you feel.. Once here… now not
Your gut wrenches with all the pain you’ve got

Let the silence come again inside of you
Listen, wait, feel; there’s nothing to do

Acceptance of all this, it comes with Love
Wisdom beyond ours; it comes from Above

Listen to your memories in sweet quietness

Look past the pain and the emptiness

Soon you will find this quiet place that you have
Has healing powers, much as a salve

Unnamed feelings with no way to express
Come, find Peace in silent reminisce

How great is the loss of your lover, your spouse
At times you may feel so alone in your house

In silence just listen, they’re there by your side
At the same table with arms open wide

They want you to feel and know their all right
As angels watch over you all through the night

I know I babble and make little sense
But feelings and words build life, not a fence

Raw emotions we have and don’t know what to do
Just listen and know that we are here for you

To walk and to talk or just sit and be
You’ve touched many lives and are like family

I don’t sit and judge that’s not who I am
I’m a watcher of life and try not to condemn

I offer to you myself as a friend
To hold if you want when tears have no end

You don’t know me that well but know this as true
As a friend in your life, I’m here for you

I believe in this place as I’ve described above
I found it first with loneliness, anger; not love

As time passes on and fond memories come
This silent place actually starts to hum

The loneliness fades and so does the pain
Even tears of your loss come and go like the rain

Memories can hurt as they pull at your heart
You’ll always wish that you’re not far apart

Times a great healer as is God Above
Hang on to your friends and gain strength from their love

Remember in silence your lover’s right there
By your side blowing kisses that brush through your hair

They loved you, and love you with all of their heart
Just know in your silence, you’re never apart.

Written with Love and prayer by Nina P. 12/2000

Life is a mystery

I wrote this a few years ago for a friend who had lost her soul mate of 20+ years. She felt lost, confused, hurt and alone..... only to one day find true love once more when she least expected it.....

This goes to life as well. We feel there is no Hope, no way to go on. One day we awaken to find life has changed around us while we've been stagnant in our own discontent...

ahhh , when this enlightenment happens, this is when New Life, New Hope cam begin again.....


Hmm... I just noticed. I never gave this one a title.... maybe it doesn't need one... (or I can ask for your help in naming it?)

Life is a mystery beyond comprehension

All its twists and turns I dare to mention

With the ups and downs there are many parts

To test and strengthen even the best of hearts

The past and the present create who you are

And your future can be as bright as that star

Remembering loved ones especially those past

Builds our resolve to stand tall by their mast

Like the great phoenix from death we grow strong

Out of the ashes comes new Love to last long

Look up to the sky and remember what's been

Then look by your side feel the warmth stir within

To be blessed with love once is a mighty pleasure

To find love again is a Heavenly treasure

As angels watch over you both night and day

God's Blessed you with this love that will stay

May your lives grow together with such great love

As God watches over you both from above

written with Love and Light 12/15/02 by Nina P.

Goodbye to Someone You Love: was written for someone that lost their mother......A Sister's Love: was written fot the loss of a sister...

GOODBYE TO SOMEONE YOU LOVE

It’s never easy to say goodbye
It’s downright hard I will not lie

Your heart it hurts as if to break
Please take it away for goodness sake

For all you feel is pain inside
Why oh why did she have to die

To leave you here with all this pain
And all your feelings to many to name

Why oh why are some lives short
Why oh why is my retort

Thinking back on all we’ve lost
We realize life has such a cost

Have faith in God, for He is Love
Have faith He’s looking down from above

Find comfort in knowing she’s by His side
For it’s in His home she now abides

She’s gone but yet she’s right near by
She’s in your dreams singing lullabies

She may not be right here on earth
But she’s up in Heaven it’s her rebirth

When you sit quiet and are at rest
That’s when your memory is at its best

Remember the fun you both share
The Joy and laughter it seems right there

For in those thoughts she’s reminding you
How much you are loved in all you do

Time will heal your broken heart
And you will know your not far apart

The gentle breezes across your cheek
Are her angle kisses oh so meek

Her scent you smell you can almost touch
Her spirit is near you, know that much

And when your sad and missing things
Remember she’s in Heaven with Angel wings

Time will pass your life will move on
And there will be times you come upon

Smiles will come and warm inside you
That’s her pride in all that you do

For years from now you’ll remember when
She held your hand a way back then

Find comfort in knowing all of this too
That one day you’ll see her and all will be new

She’s waiting in Heaven with all that have past
With Love in her heart that will last and last

God promised us through the gift of His Son
Life in Heaven His free gift we have won

Grief is a part that we must get past
In order to find Peace in our heart that will last

So take time now and shed your tears
For God knows this and all of your fears

May God keep you and hold on to you tight
And may sweet dreams be yours through the night

May family and friends continue with Pride
Know that’s what she’d want deep down inside

Goodbye with Love is what I send
To Mother, Daughter, Sister and Friend.

Written with love Nina P. 2006

A Sister’s Love

A sister’s Love is never lost
It stays right in the heart.

All you do is think of her
And you’re not that far apart

So grieve you must its part of life
It’s something we must do

Then take a breath and look within
She’s there inside of you

Her smile, laugh and things she did
You see her standing there

Her angel kiss you feel the touch
It breezes through your hair

So go outside and then look up
For that is where she’ll be

The promise of the Son it shines
For all of us you see.

Find Peace and comfort as she rests
She’s walking hand in hand

With loved ones that have gone before
They’re in the glory land.

She’s waiting there, you see, right now
She’s just behind that cloud

Close your eyes and listen well
It’s her sweet voice aloud:

The song within the birds you hear
And babbling of the brook.

So be at Peace and go within
She’s there just take a look.

Many Blessings be upon you now
And with your family

For God did promise with the Son
We’d meet in Calvary

Written with Love by Nina P. 9/19/08