When I really started feeling the "calling" to write poetry, it came from a need to express comfort to those that have lost. First with the loss of my father many years ago and then throughout the years with friends and family that have lost loved ones. Some one said my writings all "sound the same", and maybe part of that is true. As I look back on my old writings, there are many written to comfort people that have lost loved ones. By putting feelings and memories into words, I try to acknowledge the heart felt pain, and transition emotions to those that offer comfort, hope and acknowledge the joy of the life once shared.
This one was written for a friend who lost their spouse. You can exchange he or she for they if it carries more meaning for you. Originally it was she. In Love and Light, I share yet another...
IN SILENCE
What do you do when someone’s gone away?
Words seem shallow; so much more I want to say.
I sit and think, My heart aches for you.
Your pain, your sorrow, what can I do?
Your pain, your sorrow, what can I do?
Everyone gathers the support is abound
Afraid to be alone yet don’t want anyone around.
Afraid to be alone yet don’t want anyone around.
It’s a pace with no name there’s nothing you can do,
For it’s nowhere at all but inside of you.
For it’s nowhere at all but inside of you.
In silence you sit, watch, listen and wait.
You feel and feel and want out; there’s no gate.
You feel and feel and want out; there’s no gate.
The pain of the loss overtakes your breath
This place hurts as you feel their death.
This place hurts as you feel their death.
It’s dark and damp and oh so cold
You can’t go on there’s no one to hold
You can’t go on there’s no one to hold
A chill you feel then sweet softness so warm
Across your neck, your cheek, your lips…no form
Across your neck, your cheek, your lips…no form
In silence you see a light it glows
Your holding your breath, the silence grows
Your holding your breath, the silence grows
A thought it comes and touches you
A smile it brings as only they can do
A smile it brings as only they can do
Memories fly and laughter it comes
A fragrance you taste on your tongue
The light is bright as thoughts go by
Times together; they seem to fly
Times together; they seem to fly
Memories flood in. Oh please let them stay?
Oh God why did you take them away?
Oh God why did you take them away?
A silent touch you feel; your heart skips a beat
A voice, their voice, you get up on your feet
A voice, their voice, you get up on your feet
You’re alone, you’re alone ;you tell yourself out loud
Your head spins, heart races, you feel as if a cloud
Your head spins, heart races, you feel as if a cloud
This place inside of you isn’t really that bad
It’s a place where it’s even ok to get mad
It’s a place where it’s even ok to get mad
The loss you feel.. Once here… now not
Your gut wrenches with all the pain you’ve got
Your gut wrenches with all the pain you’ve got
Let the silence come again inside of you
Listen, wait, feel; there’s nothing to do
Listen, wait, feel; there’s nothing to do
Acceptance of all this, it comes with Love
Wisdom beyond ours; it comes from Above
Wisdom beyond ours; it comes from Above
Listen to your memories in sweet quietness
Look past the pain and the emptiness
Soon you will find this quiet place that you have
Has healing powers, much as a salve
Has healing powers, much as a salve
Unnamed feelings with no way to express
Come, find Peace in silent reminisce
Come, find Peace in silent reminisce
How great is the loss of your lover, your spouse
At times you may feel so alone in your house
At times you may feel so alone in your house
In silence just listen, they’re there by your side
At the same table with arms open wide
At the same table with arms open wide
They want you to feel and know their all right
As angels watch over you all through the night
As angels watch over you all through the night
I know I babble and make little sense
But feelings and words build life, not a fence
But feelings and words build life, not a fence
Raw emotions we have and don’t know what to do
Just listen and know that we are here for you
Just listen and know that we are here for you
To walk and to talk or just sit and be
You’ve touched many lives and are like family
You’ve touched many lives and are like family
I don’t sit and judge that’s not who I am
I’m a watcher of life and try not to condemn
I’m a watcher of life and try not to condemn
I offer to you myself as a friend
To hold if you want when tears have no end
To hold if you want when tears have no end
You don’t know me that well but know this as true
As a friend in your life, I’m here for you
As a friend in your life, I’m here for you
I believe in this place as I’ve described above
I found it first with loneliness, anger; not love
I found it first with loneliness, anger; not love
As time passes on and fond memories come
This silent place actually starts to hum
This silent place actually starts to hum
The loneliness fades and so does the pain
Even tears of your loss come and go like the rain
Even tears of your loss come and go like the rain
Memories can hurt as they pull at your heart
You’ll always wish that you’re not far apart
You’ll always wish that you’re not far apart
Times a great healer as is God Above
Hang on to your friends and gain strength from their love
Hang on to your friends and gain strength from their love
Remember in silence your lover’s right there
By your side blowing kisses that brush through your hair
By your side blowing kisses that brush through your hair
They loved you, and love you with all of their heart
Just know in your silence, you’re never apart.
Just know in your silence, you’re never apart.
Written with Love and prayer by Nina P. 12/2000
