"Let your light so shine before men that they may see your moral excellence and your praiseworthy, noble, and good deeds and recognize and honor and praise and glorify your Father Who is in heaven"At first, i thought that by hiding my good deeds i will be a humble man. That makes me become a "backstage person". I don't like publicity. I arranged many role plays since high school until now on my ministry at church. I also got the opportunity to make an indie films or video clips in my ministry too. When it's done, many people came to me then give me their compliments. They shook my hand and i could see sincerity from their eyes. But somehow, i feel awkward. I prefered to disappear in somewhere at that moment. I feel honored and unspoken satisfaction just by seeing their expression when they watched my role play or movie. It's enough. I used to think that i've guarded my heart from vanity by doing that. Coz i think i do what i do for God, not for human. All the glory is only for God.
Then i realize that there's something wrong with me...
That's not the real humility. God says, "Let your light so shine before men that they may see your moral excellence and your praiseworthy, noble, and good deeds and recognize and honor and praise and glorify your Father Who is in heaven". I realize that i dont want people to see or consider my good deeds because i'm not comfortable with that. It's selfish coz all i think is only myself. I forget that people can see and glorify God through my action and for these times, i've hidden it intentionally.
Forgive me God...i was selfish. I thought i have humility but in fact, it is a concealed vanity. Now i know the truth and i want to do what You are saying. I will always be a "backstage person" but with the different perspective. Yeah..it's Your perspective, not mine...Amin.
Guys, let your light shines!!!
coz we are designed to be a light...
