At the time, the reasons for not signing up for another class seemed important. My friend was not continuing, not a lot of time, money for dance lessons, dinky little apartment (How would I practice moving around?), shyness. Dance in public?! "Everyone will see how bad I am."
So what? 10 years later, these reasons seem trivial. Maybe I'd never be the one to dance solo in a restaurant with all those people looking and eating around me. A lot can happen in 10 years? Who knows. I could have thrived on that experience.
It's not too late. I'm 10 years older but I'm not bedridden. (Thank you universe.)
Do I want to try again? Absolutely!
Are the issues of the past gone?
* I've got a larger living room to practice in. Its not huge, but it will do.
* Unfortunately, I still don't have bunch of extra money for dance classes. I do however have some DVDs. That's a start. Two days of following one and I'm already sore. I'll use those while I'm saving up for the lessons.
* Am I still shy? Well...Yes. Not as shy. I still can't see myself doing a solo in a room full of people. BUT I'll dance with a few others. Who knows once I feel more confident the whole world could be my stage. OK, not really...maybe?
Regret happens.
I've found it is only debilitating when you don't or can't do anything to fix the situation. Ten years from now I want to look back and say "Yes, I did that." However it works out, at least I tried and didn't quit because I was afraid or thought I couldn't scrape up the money for lessons.
(The picture is me in a hip scarf that I got for my birthday 3 years ago.)
